My Hearing loss A story of my life

this is a true story by tiffany......
I came to this world about one month ahead of schedule. I weighed 5 lbs and 15 0unces. even though i was very small and premature, they did not have to put me in an incubator. My parents took me home 3 days later, i weighed 4 lbs and 8 and half ouces. During the first 2 years of my life my parents didn't have any idea about my hearing loss.
Everything seemed normal. i started getting really sick, my emmune system wasn't very strong. My parents knew something wasn't right, but doctors said everything was fine. My parents were very frustrated and decided to take me to a children's hospital to find out if the doctors could give any answers.the doctor talked with me, asking me some questions and observing me. After testing me for several hours, he concluded that there was a possibility i had a hearing loss. They decided to send me to an audiologist. Several months later i finally got a chance to see an audiologist. She determined that i had mild to moderated hearing loss,and had to see a specialist.
At such a young age i wasn't able to understand what was happening, but i was still a happy little girl. Isaw my specialist on regular basis, at one point i got so many ear infections he suggested that i should get 'Myringotomy tubes' placed in both ears to help drain the fluid out of my middle ear in order to reduce the risk of ear infectins. I was 3 years old at the time.
the surgery helped me for a while, but after so many surgeries they just didn't work at all. In total i've had 11 tube surgeris. i started Kindergarten at 4 years old, that was a challenge for me because not only having hearing problems, i also started learning French. My Kindergarten year of school went fine. As i went for first grade things got a little harder fo me, my hearing wasn't getting any better. My parents were very upset but there was nothing they could do. I was so sick that i missed so much of school. they decided to hold me back in the first grade.In grade 3 i got classroom listening tool called a 'system FM', the system helped me a lot because i could actually hear the teacher as she taught. A lot of my classmates looked at me as the 'deaf girl' even though i wasn't actually deaf. I had a hearing loss but wasn't deaf. Trying to make them understant was the hardest part of going to school. I never had any problems with my teachers, i had good marks and they seemed to like me. As time went by my ear infections continued and at one point they just got even worse.
In 2000 Dr W. G, my specialist determined that sadly there was nothing else he could do to help me with my hearing problems anymore. I was only 11 years old at the time. That's when he decided to send me to another specialist in Halifax Nova Scotia. Dr C. C. was highly educated and very intelligent. Dr C. C. determined thati needed a major surgery in my left ear. About 3 months later i finally got my surgery appointment and off i went to Halifax. I was very afraid at the time of my 'big' surgery. thoughts were going through my head as my nurse was getting me prepared for the operation room. I thought in my head that what if i wasn't going to make it? Am i going to see my parents again, my little brother, my grandparents? Scary!, i can't even explain the feelings and thoughts that were going through my mind. i was so afraid but 5 hours later when i finally woke up and saw my family sitting there, i was the most happy girl in the world even though i wasn't really sure what was going on.Days later finally went back home to New-Brunswick so i could recover. Weeks late i had to see my specialist to make sure thatthe cuts were healing the way they should. Dr.C told me that everything was going good, wasn't getting much each infections anymore. The surgeries were working! I was very happy. In 2003 we got bad news! My father was diagnosed with cancer. That was the saddest moment of my life. I wanted to die, i was mad at the world. All i wanted to know was why, why my father? My father was a wonderful person and i didn't want to loose him. I wanted all the pain to stop. I started getting in trouble, hanging out with wrong people. I started drinking and doing drugs. I was never home. All i wanted to do was to party. At one point i wanted to harm myself, i was so mad, i didn't want to loose my father. As my father was getting sicker, i helped out around the house, i had no choise, my mother had to work to pay the bills, and my father needed help around home. I missed a lot of school, and honestly i didn't care. In 2005 my father sadly passed away. I was 16 years old at the time. I was so shocked that he was gone.Two years later i started having really big headaches, i was really concerned if it had anything to do with my ears. One day i had an appointment with my family doctorand he referred me to a new specialist in Moncton, New-Brunswick which was about one hour from where i lived. As i met Dr. L. he told me that i had tumor in my right ear and needed it removed as soon as possible. i was very upset, all i wanted was to be normal.
Weeks later i went for my surgery. I was in intensive care because they were afraid that i would get an infection. I was hosptalised for about one week. When i finaly got released i had to take 4 months off school, so i could rest and make sure that my cut was healing properly. Those were the longest four months of my life, i was so bored, i was going crazy. As i returned to school 4 months later, i was so behind others. i worked very hard to egt good grades. One year later i graduated from high school and got accepted to everest College. Thsi will be with me forever, and my massage to all of you is .." don't ever give up no matter what you go throough"

Drugs,pills and doctors are these killing us?

What do i know or do you know about these things; drugs, pills and doctors? Are these killing us softly or helping to enhance our health or life? As technology is steadly increasing we see that our own safety is being jeopardized. But what exactly could we do to avoid these three things, and is this possible? We always hear a new version of drugs or pill or even new types of Doctors that didn't exist in the past. How did people survice before their existence? These shows how the world is continueing to be dependent on these three things and at last the new generation would be force to evolve or adapt to being engineered like a vehicle. It's so sad how we changed the world around us or objects around us to kill ourselves and how we have changed our bodies into mechines which fuel from drugs and pills and needs a doctor to do the mechanic part. Why can't we use our knowledge or skills to solves problems that exists instead of building problems over others. Why are we greed to kill than save a life. It's like the same thing with those internet people who create a virus to have customers come to them after they create its unti-virus or solution to the virus they created. How greedy can a human be? Lets face it people in the older days leaved a more healthier life than we are leaving in these error and the situation is sadly getting worse and worse. And after all these we go around telling or long down on other countries saying we are civilized, what does that mean, ' We now know how to kill ourselves?'. What do we mean by being civilized while we are dying? Is hard to live in these civilized world if thats what we call civilization. What do you think is wrong with our civilization?

Why are we dying sooner than our ancestors?

It's heart breaking the way young women and man are vanishing before their gandparents and mothers. One would ask one question,'Who is to blame?'. Is there any greed by our ancestors associated with our health? Why is that my father or mother live longer than my son or even me? What did they eat or do to live that long that i can't eat? Is this showing that the world is going to the end as the bible say? Some resouces say that the technology is killing us, but is this true?- think about the doctors, researches, scientists, engineers, all those efforts and people who have tried to enhance life. Is this a punishment to god! In the old days they didn't have doctors or any equipment found in these error that could support life or do better than what we have created in these error. Whats wrong with the air we breath, food we eat, the ways we live, what exactly are we missing that our elders can not or forgot to teach us.
One would say the technology is killing us. Things like cars, machine, pills, drugs, electricity etc. But we know well that our health besides those things i mentioned is far more not satifying on average compared to the old days. More diseases have come in place- did we create those, then how can we do reverse engineering to help dismantle them.
Do you realise that your 80 year old grandmother is far more healthier than a 40 year old women you see in every street everywhere you go, then do you ever wonder or ask yourself why is it like that? It's time that we start now and find what really eating us young and the new generation. Do you ever wonder what life would be like for your grand son?, Oh wait, first you have to wonder if you will be able to live to see your grandson.
The question is 'why' ....